Lows

You’re there constantly
Other emotions come and flow
But it always leads back to you
I can’t understand why
You make me push everyone away
Wanting to revel in your glorious despair
Yet I also hate you
Wishing I could be like them
Content and positive
But sometimes shadows are comforting
So what do I do
When my mind is fighting to stay afloat
Can I fight destiny
Should I even want to
Then sleep comes
A soft calm vagueness